running away (edit)

I miss old friends
that meant nothing to me then
but now that I'm gone
I don't know why I left
was I just afraid
of what? responsibility
afraid they would get to know me
and not like what they see
running away from life
as soon as I become comfortable in a situation
I throw myself deeper into the fire
and somewhere between tears and laughter I lie
you should laugh, I would not blame you
what a fool I have been
was it too much, was it not enough?
why am I running away?