New Years Day

Well I didn't go to hilo, I went to a friends wedding instead and ended up helping the servers. But that was okay my best friend was helping me and we didn't really know that many people there so I thought helping would be better than trying to mingle. Besides I was glad to help. I called my dad later to wish him a happy new year and I heard all my cousins in the background having fun and popping firecrackers and I cried, I guess I was lonely. I regretted not getting up that morning and going, and I hated myself. I hope this isn't how the rest of the year will be.