1.5.06

ok monday.

whew, I just read my last post, written how long ago, it has been seven months since that night I first fucked mike and my goodness how things have changed. I suppose the first order of business would be to continue the story of that night and the next day and then of course all of the days that followed. Unfortunately my sense of chronological order has long since been lost and I could probably never describe clearly all that has happened since then, but I think I'll give it the old college try.

As the events of that night become clearer to me I regret more than anything that I am not capable of remembering fully what happened, or of tranferring that amazing sense of novelty that permeated the entire evening. That night was an entirely new experience for me, and I wish my words could do justice to that feeling.

Well, let's see, I think at about the same time mike and I were fooling around, madison and jesse decided to go off by themselves. Essentially, they lost themselves in the night...and in my yard.

We left my room and hung out with renee and sean, sitting on the sofa that was out on the porch. At one point my dad came into the kitchen while mike was sitting next to me with his arm around me. We had run out of weed by this time but mike said there was more in his car, of course no one wanted to walk all the way down to the culdesac to get it. This problem was easily remedied though when mike agreed to give my mom a little weed if I could take the truck. The drive was as uneventful as, looking back on it all, the rest of the night seems to have been. madison and jesse eventually found their way back to the house and renee and sean tried and failed at losing their virginities and they all ended up sleeping on the pull out sofa in the living room.

Mike and I got about three hours of sleep that night. We lay there and talked for awhile, about his ex and what he didn't want in a girl. I remember him telling me not to fall in love with him and that he didn't want a girlfriend. When finally we turned off the light and decided to sleep, we didn't do a very good job. Lying there next to him, naked next to a man for the first time in my life, I was in no way able to sleep. We had sex again, sweaty, passionate, under the covers sex, then a short nap and another round. A couple more hours went by and five o'clock followed on their heels to find us at it again, waking everyone up and using the last condom. We stayed in until around seven, just holding each other and dozing. Finally we all had to get up, mike was already two hours late for work. The boys walked down the hill, leaving the ladies to clean, and renee and I to the truly amazing and amusing discovery that madison fell off a cliff last night, which explained her pants being so dirty.

I don't quite remember anything else about that day except the last hour or so of work, I was closing that night, mike showed up at around seven and asked if I wanted to go home with him when I got off. I called my mom and asked if I could stay over at renee's house after work and she said yes without question. Later that night I went to mike's house, thankfully renee and madison were there too, and we all got drunk again. I think I stayed for one more day after that, calling my mom on sean's cell phone and stretching the lie a little more. When finally I went home I thought I would never see mike again.

but I couldn't let that happen now could I.......